Hi, and welcome to my castle (blog).

My life took a strange turn a couple weeks ago, and I have to start my life anew, so I figured I would start a blog as I start my new life. This is a place for me to express my feelings, creativity, and zaniness... More over, it's a place I can look and reflect on my life, but I will share it with the world as well, because I can.

As I mentioned, my life took a turn for the worst a few weeks ago. My husband (we were commlaw married) of 6 years decided he wanted to separate, I was thrust out into the world, penniless, jobless, to start my life over again. At 29, I cant say this was something I was looking forward to... Or even expecting. We were making wedding and life plans just a couple days before, this separation came as quite a shock to me. But, what must be, must be. It seems he had fallen out of love with me, and needed to explore life alone, unfortunately for me, I'm still desperately in love with him, but life goes on.

So now, I'm looking for a place to live, (I'm couch surfing right now - THANK YOU TO MY MOM!! Still willing to take me in and rescue me even at 29!) get a job, and trying to get my life started again, while trying to come to grips with the loss of the love of my life.

I managed to get a job at West as an agent. The hours aren't great, but its work. Now I have to find a place to live too. Then I can move out all my stuff, and get my cats, and start over.

My X and I are going to try and remain friends, but I hope that can be done: Seems 2 days after he gave me the boot, he had already moved on with his life, and had a new girl he was interested in, and was buying new clothes, and things for the apartment, as well as doing all the things he had planed for us to do, only, he was doing it with someone else. I'm happy he's happy, and I want to remain friends, I'm just not sure my heart can handle that.

So here I sit, new job starting Monday, new life on the horizon, scared, but ready for anything. This is my story, my life, my journey. I hope its a good one.

Thank you to all the great blogs I've read that gave me this idea (WWDN especially), I hope to make this blog something special, even though right now, its to help me heal... later on, in time, it will be so much more.

Here is a picture of me and my X. It's a photoshop he did not long before he decided we were over. I want to share it. It is my old life, my past of not log ago, and today, I begin again. Ready or not... Here I come!


Picture Removed at the request of the X

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INSPIRATIONAL THOUGHT OF THE DAY
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What do you want from life? Write it down, Think about it, Discover what you truly want!

What do I want from life?
*Happiness
*To Love & Be Loved
*Inner Peace
*The Ocean (I've always been drawn to the ocean... and I don't know what that means, but I need to find out)
*Fitness
*Husband
*Children
*House/Home
*Pets
*Comfort (not to be "rich" but not living day to day, cherub to cherub)

Thank you to Matthew Kelly's Book "The Rhythm of Life" for this Inspiration.