Reflection

So here I am, watching Austin Powers: International Man of mystery, thinking about my life. About the last 4 years... 6 years... 10 yeas.... 29 years. In my life, I have seen and done a lot of things. I may not have traveled the world, or been to the moon, but I have had some fun.

At a young age, I learned a love and respect for nature, and animals. I have an affinity for animals, be it my pet dogs, or cats, horses, or geese, fish or sharks, I love them all. Spending time with animals is fulfilling, seeing them suffer pains me more than words can express, the sight of one that has passed on brings me to tears. The presence of nature is powerful to me, be it the ocean, a tree, or a moss covered stone. There is such beauty, just outside our urban lives, waiting to be discovered. And I was lucky enough to discover it at a young age. Living on a 24 acre island with just your family doing aquaculture, you learn to appreciate nature, and what nature has to offer.

I have learned the gift of music. To play music, to listen to music, to write music (whether the poetry of the lyrics, or the music itself). I have learned that music is heard with the ears, understood with the heart.

I have learned the love of technology. Computers, DVD's, TV's all technology. I learned how to build, and repair PC's how to play games, and make the PC's play games better.

I have taken my love of nature and the ocean to become a PADI divemaster, where I hope to see the sharks, and where I can be in the ocean, see all the life within and discover an inner peace I have no where else.

I have a love of books, reading. Be it a biography, or a fantasy novel, or an educational book. There is much to be gained from an hour or two a day of reading.

I have reflected upon my life, and realized I set myself aside for a few years. Why? As of yet, I do not know. I let myself go. For 10 years I was lost.... I was not honest with myself. I cut myself off. And once I was in to deep, I was to afraid to look at myself. I was to afraid to face my friends, knowing they would see though. They would see the person I am, and the person trapped inside me, and they would try and help. I wasn't ready for that. Why? I don't know. I lost myself. But I am becoming free. I am becoming me again.

I want to travel. I wish to see the world, and especially Disneyland again.

I want to get a little piece of land, and get some dogs, and cats, and horses.

I want to get a huge library.

I want to have all the high tech toys.

I want to do all this, and more.

For me.

It's neat to be me again.... Except I'm not.

I do not know who I am.

I know who I was.

I know what I want.

But I'm still not sure of who I am becoming.

But...

It will be a fun ride.

I'm glad I have great friends to share it with.

A great Great GREAT friend of the family who passed a way a number of years back had a necklace that had a saying on it I used to try and live by. I forgot about it (not really forgot, just forgot to live by it) for a while, until recently. I would like to share that quote with you:

Live, Love, Laugh.

Words to live by.

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INSPIRATIONAL THOUGHT OF THE DAY
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"The unexamined life is not worth living."
-Socrates