I need to find my gift.

I need to find my gift. Why I am here. What my purpose is. What is my gift? What have I been put here to do? I don't know. I think this is part of my self discovery that I am going though. My life has no foundation. It has no direction.

What you become is infinitely more important than what you do and what you have.

What will it take today for me to become the better person I know I can be?

((Thanks Matthew Kelly for those quotes))

What is my goal?

How do I get "from point A to point B"?

The problem with these questions, I don't know where to start to find the answers.

I do not know how to begin this journey..

I suppose I have already started. In my X throwing me out, he forced me to go out and start this journey. To start to find out who the better person is inside me. I need to learn who I am.

But I can't do that sitting at home. I need to get back to work, because I'm going nuts!

I'm so lonely.

Sad huh.

Most of my friends, have families, have busy lives, and otherwise little time for a smuck like me. Which is cool, I've been there. I've had the husband, the life, the lack of time. Of course all my friends who are not in that situation are the X's friends. So, I'm alone a lot. Which, isn't horrible, but its not great ether.

I need to find a way to get some money to join a club. Maybe a marine club, or photography class, or a writing class.

It's so stupid. I'm just a week away from being golden, and the car crash happens.

What do I mean by golden?

benefits, money in a savings account in case of emergency.

Being prepared.

I just don't know what to do.

My thoughts are scattered again, I'm tired because I cant got out.

I'm lonely.

It's just so stupid.

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INSPIRATIONAL THOUGHT OF THE DAY
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"He conquers who endures."
-Persius