Four months

Has it really been that long?

The X and I split 4 months ago, and I can't believe it.

It certainly dose not feel like 4 months, I certainly don't feel like I have moved far enough along for 4 months. I do still feel torn, lost, alone and in love with someone I cant have. I feel like it has only been a month or 2, but certainly not 4.

I thought for sure that I would be well over things by now, I guess I was mistaken.

On the flip side, I know I have some so far so fast.

I know I am doing amazing... But I don't feel like it is enough for 4 months.

That is a depressing thought.

People often ask me if I could go back in time would I... My answer is two fold: No, and Yes.

No I don't want to go back and erase the last 6 years, it was an experience, and I love him, and you ant fight that. But Yes. I want to go back to the start of highschool back to 1987. I would go back and change what I did. Not take the easy route, concentrate on writing, and marine biology. I would spend time with photography, and friends. I would love to go back to 1987 with the knowledge I know now. Where might my life have gone. I would go to university. I would get a masters or PHD.

I would do things so different.

If I had $1,000,000 I would pay off all debts, buy a house, and go to school.

I wish hindsite was more useful!

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INSPIRATIONAL THOUGHT OF THE DAY
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"Time goes by so fast, people go in and out of your life. You must never miss the opportunity to tell these people how much they mean to you."
-"Cheers"