The big day

So I started my first day on the floor at work yesterday. That meant I sat down and started taking calls. My first call I was so nervous. But it went seamlessly. I seemed to know just what to do. I guess that classroom training paid off. Then for my 7th call every Quality Assurance sat with me to see how I was doing (yeah that didn't make me nervous at all). Well quality seemed happy with my work, so that makes me feel good.

I took calls all night, and actually had a great time. I really like my job. Its so much fun. Getting used to the 3 - 11 shift is hard. I find it hard making my big meal (dinner) for lunch and having lunch for dinner. And I don't like having to get everything I want to do for the day done on a time line because I have to work at 3... BUT, I don't have to be up early... So that's good.

I really am enjoying my job.

And of course, to top off my nervousness, I saw the X's X. And she works the next row over... UGH! We exchanged a look of mutual distaste and forced tolerance. I do NOT like working with her.

That is going to be tragic at some point. I can see it now.

But, that's ok. It will all be ok.

I hope.

And incase I haven't mentioned it before:

I'M SO DAMN PROUD TO BE CANADIAN!



Living in Victoria BC, the most beautiful place on earth is the greatest joy I can imagine.

I'm so lucky!

Now, I came home to a IM from my X that scared the hell out of me. I was so worried about him. I even called him (which lets face it, right now is detrimental to my recovery/rediscovery). But he's ok. At least I think he is. I hope he will actually take some time for himself, to think, and reflect. I don't know if he will... but I hope so, for his sake.

There is a good man lost somewhere in there... That's the man I love, the man I wanted to marry... He needs to find himself. Whether its the good man, or this new man, I'm not sure. But I can almost see the internal struggle he is having.

I hope he can find himself, and happiness.

I still worry about him.

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INSPIRATIONAL THOUGHT OF THE DAY
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"Thinking: The talking of the soul with itself."
-Plato