A new week

So it's my Monday today. I started the day by an early phone call from office depot, they have my bookcase! So the dropped it off at 9:45, then I ran to the Gym. Today at the gym I upped my Reps. So I had a really hard workout. It was fantastic though I feel great!

After I got home, I thought I would build my bookcase, but I'm to burned out to do it, so I'll do it tomorrow. I would build it when I get home from work, but somehow I don't think hammering and nailing at 11:30pm is a good idea.

So I woke up REALLY anxious today, and I'm not sure why. Maybe its all the changes going on in my life, maybe its the fact I don't know who I am or where I am going, regardless, I'm REALLY anxious. I just spent the last hour making cheat sheets for work to hang in my cubical, trying to keep my mind off things. I sit here typing listening to the music from "HUSH" : One of the all time greatest Buffy Episodes (for non-excessive Buffy fans, its the episode with no dialogue). I'm trying to keep whatever it is causing me anxiety to go away. But I cant seem to make it disappear. Maybe after I get to work. I hope.

Anyways...

I picked up the push pins I needed to decorate (Oh, the final music from "The Gift" the final episode of season 5, where Buffy Dies (incidentally the 100th episode), just came on this music always makes me cry.... When did I become such a sap!)

Anyway....

I plan to decorate my place over the next few days, I still don't know what, or how... But I want to make it something special... Homey. I want to get my Majestic prints framed... The would look so neat over the couch I think. I would LOVE to get some Buffy items for the house. Maybe a framed USC Sunny Dale Shirt, or Posters of Angel or Spike, or the Cast. I don't know. We will see. Until then, I got all my old stand bys.

Well I should go make my lunch, and dinner, and get ready for work.

I just wish this anxious feeling would go away!

I want to be happy again.

I just want to be truly, honestly, happy.

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INSPIRATIONAL THOUGHT OF THE DAY
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"If we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we aren't really living."
-Gail Sheehy