Old debt's will haunt

Well what a day. I took the heap back. They did not seem very pleased about it, but I didn't care, they said "we will cover anything major" and seeing as how I'm not a jerk, I just asked for a refund (I could have asked for the repairs $789 to make it safe $655 to make it run well in an $800 car... I don't think so). So I got my money back ,and but down a bundle on that Toyota I mentioned yesterday. Yup, 2 Door, 4 Speed, Hatchback, Strong arm steering (I like that, but I guess to each his own). It's white, and the mechanic's gave it the thumbs up! There is a couple things that need to be attended to but nothing soon, and nothing more than $100. About right for a used car.

I had my first assessment today. 100%. Yeah baby! Of course, open book, open computer on topics I know. The ONLY way I could gotten less, was to not read the questions. But I want this job, and love the people, and the corporation I work for, and I'm actively trying not to be lazy, or take the easy route any more, so I spent TIME on the questions. Went over it until I was sure. The long way, but it paid off. I'm actually thinking I might want to transfer to ether being a trainer, or human recourses (hiring) or tech support. But I think for tech support you need your Citrix Cert. Maybe I can steel The X's?

Speaking of the X...

I talked to the X last night on the phone... I think we both needed to talk... We certainly need to get some stuff out. But in the end we were laughing and joking. I like being his friend, even if it hurts. I like it. I'm glad we are both fighting to be friends. I wish I didn't love him anymore... I especially wish I wasn't attracted to him. I mean, he's HOT. It would be so much better if he wasn't... Or at least if I didn't think so.

I'm still so jealous over all his new women (ok 2), but I am. I always have been. It's kind of nice to know that even if at the time he wasn't interested in them, my radar was on to something subconscious, and what they were thinking. My radar has been pretty bang on.

Anyway...

So I hooked up Shaw, and tried to hook up telus today. Seems a bill for 5 years ago wasn't paid. I don't know HOW that's possible, because in the 3 years before we move and they year we had forwarding addresses we never got a single notice. BUT $450 owing and $450 deposit required... HERE I FRIGING GO AGAIN! I don't know what I'm going to do. All I do know is that IF I got digital cable now, it would only be 4 dollars more... I mean seriously. I wish I could afford that box or I would so have it. I would call it my treat. I mean the movies rock.

So I don't know what I'm going to do. I guess it will fall into place some how.

Tonight will be my quiet night. Bed early.

I cant wait to get into my new place.

I just hope I have the strength to keep going. Everyday seems so overwhelming, and I feel like I cant go on. But I must persevere. And I will. I have to, what other choice do I have.


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INSPIRATIONAL THOUGHT OF THE DAY
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"We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them."

Albert Einstein